Normal P.O.V
It had been five months since simca told Ikki that she was pregnant and that the baby was supposedly his. Even now, Ikki still didn't believe that it was his baby. But many others believed different, even Akito and Agito. Akito was so upset about the rumors of Ikki and simca that he broke up with the crow and was not seen or heard from since. The relationship between him and his friends changed, too. With the rumors of him sleeping with simca and knocking her up flying around, their trust in Ikki was waning. He tried his best to convince them that simca was lying and that there was no way that her baby was his, but in his opinion, it didn't get through. Some of them believed him but not one hundred percent. After all it had been five months. And since then word of the pregnancy got all over the city. This was going to be a very lousy Christmas.
On the evening before Christmas Eve, Ikki was in his room lying down, Thinking that he was all alone in the world. He could never forget the last time he saw Akito.
Flashback-five months ago Ikki's P.O.V
I just came back from the grocery store and I was still in shock about what Simca told me. I don't know who she slept with or how long she's been pregnant but I know that she and I never had sex since Akito and I were together. There is no way that that baby is mine, it's absolutely not possible. I wanted to tell the girls the ridiculous story that she tried to sell me but then again, didn't know how they would take it. I mean sure, they know what a compulsive liar Simca is but they're not exactly the smartest girls in the world. So throughout the day, I kept her stupid lie to myself. I also had to make sure that Akito was okay, too. I don't want him to know that I know about the rape until he's ready to tell me. The last thing that I want him to do is run away again.
Night time came and I saw my lover lying on the bed, a dazed look in his eyes. I wanted to try to cheer him up tonight so I ran and jumped onto the bed, but I landed on him pretty hard. I didn't mean to hurt him I just wanted to make him laugh.
"Ouch. Ikki you jackass what's wrong with you?" He cried pushing me off the bed. Yeah he may have his own body now but he's still as strong now as he was when Agito was part of him. I don't know what's gotten into him. He used to like it when I pounced on him. I got up and climbed back in the bed.
"I just wanted to cheer you up some." I said.
"Well it didn't work." He snapped. Then he turned over to his side and looked like he was ready to go to sleep. What the hell? He never went to sleep without at least giving me a good night kiss. I mean, sure the rape was brutal but I never thought he'd have such a bad attitude with me. But I wouldn't give up. I will make him smile before he goes to sleep. I slowly moved toward him and tried to wrap my arms around his body, but the reaction that I got was not shocking but definitely disappointing. He stuck my chest with his elbow and got up from the bed. He was in the worst mood I ever saw him in.
"Ikki, you don't get it do you?" he started. "I'm not in the mood for your bullshit tonight! So let me go to sleep and don't even try to touch me!"
I couldn't believe what he was saying to me! He'd never say anything like this to me.
"Akito," I asked trying to play stupid. "What's gotten into you all of a sudden?"
"What's gotten into me? What's gotten into ME?" I'll TELL you what gotten into me! I SPENT TWO WHOLE YEARS WITHOUT AGITO! I WENT ON A BLIND DATE WITH A FUCKING STALKER WHO WAS LYING TO ME THE WHOLE TIME! I WAS FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF THE WHOLE TIME AGITO WAS GONE! I HAVE BEEN HURTING MYSELF ALL THIS TIME AND FOR WHAT? SO I CAN TAKE THIS BULLSHIT FROM YOU? THE WORLD DOESN'T REVOLE AROUND YOU, YOU DUMASS CROW! I THOUGHT YOU WOULD UNDERSTAND ABOUT THESE THINGS! THAT MAYBE YOU WOULD GIVE ME SOME TIME TO HEAL. I ACTUALLY THOUGHT THAT YOU AND I COULD BE A COUPLE. BUT WHAT HAPPENS? I GOT KIDNAPPED AND RAPED AND YOU WEREN'T THERE! YOU LEFT ME ALONE! AND YOU KNOW WHAT, I DON'T CARE THAT YOU WERE IN THE DAMN HOSPITAL YOU SHOULD HAVE DIED THERE! YOU SHOULD BE ROTTING IN HELL RIGHT NOW!IN FACT I HOPE YOU DO GET SHOT AGAIN! YOU DID THIS TO ME, IKKI! YOU MADE ME INTO WHAT I AM NOW!" then the next thing I saw were his thing already in his suitcase. This can't be happening, I can't let him walk out that door again. As he went down the stairs I ran after him and finally caught up. I wrestled Akito into my arms and tried to talk to him.
"Akito, I get that you've been through a lot in the past two years but that doesn't give you any right to speak to me like that! I did the best I could do for you and maybe my best wasn't good enough, but you have no right to blame all of your problems on me! I may be a fuck-up, but god dammit I love you and I'd do anything for you. You have me and the others; you don't have to deal with this on you own."
I had a feeling that he wasn't listening to me. I could tell when I saw him heading for the door. I tried my best to convince him to stay but it seemed like nothing was getting through. Then I had an idea. Maybe if I told him simca's dumb story he'll reconsider.
It was worth a shot.
"Yeah, so anyway, I was at the store earlier today and guess who I ran into: Simca-"
"Great," Akito said sarcastically. "Why don't you go screw her? She's the one you want right?"
"uhh, I'm not finished. See she came up with this stupid story saying that she was pregnant with my baby. Ha, pretty stupid huh?"
It didn't work at all. Instead of him laughing about that lie, he got even more upset with me than he already was. I mean come on! Why did he have to explode now of all times after it seemed like things were getting better?
"The one who's stupid is you!" he said pushing me until I almost fell over the banister of the stairs. "You expect me to believe that that baby she's having isn't yours! I bet you did screw around with her in the hospital! Oh, and I lied! I wasn't raped; I cheated on you with Daisuke! So there!" and then he walked out of that house and my life just like that. I don't know if he meant any of what he said to me but regardless, it broke my heart to see him like that. And to hear what he thinks of me now. I haven't seen Akito since then.
End flashback.
Present day: Normal P.O.V
Since that day Ikki and the others have not seen or heard from Akito. Everyone was getting worried about his well being, especially Agito. He looked everywhere he could think of but could not find Akito anywhere. He continuously blamed the crow for his other half's disappearance.
"You fucking crow!" he would shout. "Akito wouldn't have ran off if it weren't for your bullshit!"
Simca's rumors about carrying Ikki's child were through the roof. But it didn't take long for Ikki and kazu to find out the truth.
Flashback-two weeks ago
"Plan succeeded." Simca said with a big smile on her face. Sitting across from her was none other than the obsessive jerk himself.
"So what happened?" He asked
"Oh it wasn't difficult. Ikki doesn't believe that this is his child but it is. And I have you to thank for that." She said.
Daisuke then held up a container that had what looked like sperm. Ikki's sperm to be exact.
"It wasn't difficult; I just disguised myself as a nurse, stole this and got him to give it to me. And then put it in 't forget you have to hold up your end of the deal. I get you pregnant and you kill that crow!"
Simca's expression completely changed when she was reminded of the deal.
"Oh no. I plan to have the little crow all to myself. So I'm going after that runt."
"But I want Akito-kun so you get rid of Ikki."
Simca then took the silver haired man's hand.
"Isn't that why this plan was made, so that we break them up and get who we want."
Ikki and kazu were listening to their conversation and were disgusted by what they heard. It was all a plot to get Akito to leave. They couldn't believe it. They knew simca and Daisuke were diabolical but this crossed the line.
End flashback.
Ikki has tried to find Akito so he could tell him the truth but he never had any luck. Hopefully the truth would be revealed soon. And maybe everything would be better. Maybe.
The night before Christmas Outside of kaito's house, Akito was just standing by the door. He began to think about what he said to his spiky haired ex, five months ago. At first he thought leaving was the right thing to do. But then as he thought about it again, he realized that his words were out of anger and fear. He realized he was hateful to the boy he loved; he hurt someone who tried to be there for him. A huge wave of guilt filled his heart. He now knew what he had to do. But he wasn't sure how to go about it.
"I was horrible to him…" he said to himself. "All that anger I had toward Daisuke I took it out on him. And I lied to him, and I was so hateful, I even said that I hoped he would get shot again. What the hell is wrong with me! Why did I say all of those terrible things to him?" then he walked. He didn't know where he was going but he walked on and just kept telling himself an important fact.
"I need to stop being a victim and man up for a change! I've been feeling sorry for myself for too long and I won't do it anymore! I've had enough pain and suffering for one lifetime. I may have suffered but that really has made me stronger. My whole life I've put up with abuse. Whether it was from kaito, from Daisuke or even when I abused myself. The whole time I was getting hurt I always took pity on myself. All I ever did was rely on other people to rescue me! But it's time that I rescue myself. I'm not the same kid that I was then so I should stop acting like it. I am older, wiser and stronger now. Maybe that's what Agito was trying to teach me while he was here and while he was gone. I just wish that I saw that sooner. But better late than never, I am a new man, and I won't dwell on the past anymore!"
The entire way to wherever he was going, the bluenette had those same words echoing in his head and through his mouth. He had to be stronger from now on. He had to be a man and not a boy. His worst fear, however was that Ikki would never for give him for his tirade. But this was no time to go back on his own words, he made that promise to himself and there was no way he would break that promise. First he stopped at a nearby store and picked up a very expensive necklace then he unconsciously headed for Ikki's house. Hoping that maybe they could work it out.
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